March 20, 2003
Well, UCAS forms are all sent off.. just gotta cross my fingers that I'm going to get into uni now! I'm scared stiff about having an interview, I don't wanna freeze up or anything or seem really boring.... but they're not for a while thank goodness.
I was really tired yesterday evening, and I have no idea why. I didn't get any work done and I was dozing off at 9pm but somehow I hung on til 11 and went to bed then, I tried reading a book but I must have only read a page or something because next thing I know it's about 11:45 and my mum had come into my room to turn my bedside lamp off because I had fallen asleep. Ewww.... I can see something disturbing at the moment, out of my bedroom window I can see into the bathroom of another house and quite old people living there. They're old and miserable and used to tell me to 'shut up' when I was little and used to play in my garden. Anyway, they have no blind on their window and I can see naked flesh... ewwwww! Take it away.
I got my Matchbox Twenty album through the post at last today. I listened to it earlier and it's soooo good. Haha, I was talking to Ben in my class today about 'Round the Twist'... remember that? I loved that programme, especially the one entitled 'Lucky Lips' where that bloke puts on this weird lipstick that this gypsy woman gave him and females can't help kissing him. Also the one with that earring that the same boy put on and it makes rubbish be attracted to him, and that one with the dead fox that they had to feed lemons to make it come alive again... good stuff. In some episodes they changed the kids and they weren't as good and the boy is annoying. The boy in the others is hilarious though.
March 18, 2003
I am surprised at myself, having distanced myself from Simply Red's music as my Mum is a fan and I don't like most of it, I actually like the new song 'Sunrise' very very much. Sometimes you find a song that you really like and have to keep listening to it. That hasn't happened for a long time.
I had a great weekend. Went to Wetherspoons on Friday with Gemma and some of her friends, then went to Martines for a bit which was more or less empty aside from the 16 year olds, and to think that I got ID'd when I was going in (I think? I can't actually remember!). Then I travelled to Oxford on the coach on Saturday morning and arrived at 1pm. Hayley and Gemma met me and we went to get a bite to eat and then we went back to Gem's house which was actually quite nice. I was expecting it to be quite old looking inside but it wasn't. Saw Pitchshifter in the evening which wasn't as bad as I thought it would be *s* and then we got a bottle of wine and cooked pasta and it was very yummy. Wine affects me a lot, it makes me most drunk out of everything I think because after just a couple of glasses I can feel a little tipsy. It made me sleep well though, which was nice as I usually can't get to sleep very well in strange places. Sunday we went ice skating which was really fun. I love zipping around the rink with the wind whistling through my hair (cheesy huh!), and I am pleased to say that I upheld my record of not falling over once... woohoo! Hayley fell over just as the session was ending, hehe. We grabbed sandwiches for lunch then went back to Gems house on the bus, where they gave me cake and presents :D. Soon after that I had to get my coach home, and I arrived at Gatwich at about 6pm, then I had to go in a lift all on my own which was VERY scary, I HATE lifts. There were probably stairs but I couldn't find them. My Dad picked me up and then we went home where I found out that none of my family really cared that it was my birthday, which was upsetting. They didn't make any effort at all. Pah. So I went to have a sulk in the shower.
March 13, 2003
Argghhhhh so much work to do! I have like a zillion things to do at once-ucas, finishing current project by next week, starting final final project and statement of intent has to be in next week? Then we have this extra bit we have to do with CAD and we have to think of a theme or something for it - everyone's really pissed off about it because we were only told we had to do it last week, then I have to sort out my portfolio and prepare for interview which I'm getting very scared about!
It's my birthday on Sunday - I'm going to Oxford for the weekend to see Gemma, and Hayley will be there too. It's gonna be cool. I asked my parents to just give me money for my birthday because I'm trying to save up for a decent computer to take to uni. I found the Harry Potter computer game in Crawley for a bargainous 10 quid last Sunday, so I got that and it's very good :)
It was a weird day yesterday lol... I went to visit Jon in the fine art room just after lunch because I was getting bored of my room and there was this bloke called David in there. We were all talking about various stuff, and this David bloke said that graphics students had no soul, then somehow we got onto war and stuff. Half an hour later I went back to my room to get on with some work. Then after college I was waiting at the station for the train home with Jon and Gemma and Jon said to me "it was really cute when you left our room earlier" and I was like "why?" apparently this David bloke had said "I'm gonna marry her, she's really pretty" or something like that. lol. It made my day, it's nice to have a boost of confidence sometimes! Then we saw these pigeons on top of the next platform. One of them (I'll call it the grey one) seemed to be hustling the other one along (which was white and brown), then the white and brown one jumped off the platform and dropped down. I thought it was gonna sort of take flight any second and glide off, but it didn't, it just kept on falling and then we heard this *splat* as it hit the rail. Some of it's feathers were plastered on the rail. The pigeon sort of rolled off the rail and was just sitting there. It couldn't fly and looked stunned and I wanted to go and rescue it but I didn't because that would have been very dangerous for me hehe. After about 10 minutes a train came along and we thought the pigeon was gonna get knocked out by the underparts of the train, some of which are quite low, but they must have missed the bird's head but millimetres. Then our train came along and we had to leave. This morning we did go and look if the pigeon was still there but it was gone, but we did see a dead grey pigeon further up the track. I reckon it was pigeon murder, as that grey one hustling it along probably pushed it.
March 2, 2003
I had this weird dream last night, I dreamt I went to visit Brighton uni, only it wasn't Brighton uni - I went somewhere else and I ended up at Brighton uni. Anyway, when I got there these 2 girls showed me into this room, then loads more people showed up and they were all from my old school. I saw Hayley and she was wearing this feather boa type thing. There was going to be a meeting of some sort in the room, talking about the course or something and we were all told that we HAD to ask a question to the people who were doing the meeting. Somewhere before the meeting people turned up and everyone was milling around the room, Matt appeared briefly in the room and I was thinking "what the hell is he doing here?", and he just said "Oh no, blah blah (someone's name) isn't here" and went away again. So the meeting took place and everyone asked their questions. Something went wrong though and we were told to come back in the afternoon to ask our questions again, and they were gonna rig up a microphone so everyone in the uni could hear (lol). The time came round, and they were calling people in one by one. I was dreading asking my question so everyone could hear because it was probably a really stupid one, and I was thinking I could hide or run away so nobody could find me, but apparently the uni people could find anyone. Then I woke up and I was very relieved!
February 27, 2003
About 200 words to go on my essay.. woohoo! (has to be 1500 words long), kind of running out of steam now though so I'm just rambling on about crap.. blah blah blah. Must get 200 words written before Scrubs is on! That's one of my new favourite programmes - that bloke on there is really funny and dappy :)
I have this ugly looking spot coming up at the side of my mouth and it's really sore. I felt it coming up yesterday and today it emerged, all red and angry looking. Grrr! It always happens in the holidays, without fail. Weird, huh?
February 26, 2003
It's my Mum's birthday today ^_^ I won't say how old she is because I don't think she wouls appreciate that, haha.
I actually bought some new clothes yesterday.. woah. The other day we watched my Andria's friend's Romeo and Juliet DVD, I'd seen it twice already but I liked it more this time. I love the music when they see each other through the fishtank, and the choir.
I'm trying to do an essay... been trying to do it all today and I've only written about 300 words :((( what's going on?? I've started on a drawing of Darren Hayes because I haven't done one for years and I can add it to my Darren drawings folder (how sad?). Hopefully I've improved. At college I have a little Darren shrine at my desk now, I have a drawing from Kim at darrenhayesonline.net and another from some girl who did a really brilliant pastel drawing of him, I also have a tiny photo of him, and a disturbing drawing by Shari at survivebadblood.com of a girl with someone sewing her eyes together because she won't stop crying, and a drawing by kuro at aede.fireyskye.net... so I have all my inspirations there looking at me now :)
I got the 2 Darren Hayes singles that I couldn't get anywhere yesterday, found them in Crawley's HMV. One of them had the Crush vid on it. I've only seen that vid twice on the TV, but I really like it. It's all 80's colourful clothes and dancing and it's very cheesy, apparently Darren's Dad is behind the counter in it and I must say he looks like a scary man... he has a 2-tone beard and broad shoulders and a bald head. Eek. I wonder if Darren will look like that when he gets old? lol.
For some reason I had this craving the other day to download a sound by Matchbox Twenty because I'd never really heard their music before, so I just downloaded whatever song I came across first. The song is called 'Disease' and it's sooo good. I found out that it's on their new album and I'm gonna try and get my Dad to buy it for me heh. On my Winamp playlist at the moment I have.... Michael Jackson, the Pointer Sisters, Kool and the Gang, SG demo songs, Air, Matchbox 20, The Four Tops, Patrice Rushen, Shalamar, Madonna and Lionel Ritchie
Ok! I'm gonna try to get on with my essay now. This was only meant to be a short entry.
February 21, 2003
Half term...woohoo...!..? I have rather a lot of work to do! I have to do all of my research essay, my project to finish which we were given another extension of the half term on... atm I have to do an A1 sheet, and finish off the other three A1 sheets, figure out how I'm going to present my music interpretation pieces (was gonna bind them like a book but am now thinking I can make another 10, bind 10 and mount the other 10 on an A1 sheet, but I'll see how I go..) and I have to finish my 9 logos, print them and mount them too. Tonight I think I'll try to finish the logos, the A1 sheet shouldn't be too hard to get done once I've started it, but how are you supposed to make begging appealing to rich old people? I really need to get cracking sharpish... why am I on the computer just writing about what I'm going to do when I could actually be doing it? heh. My parents picked me up from college today because it would have been impossible for me to carry 6 A1 mounting boards and a plastic carrier with paints, etc.. in it the long walk to the station, not to mention getting them through the barriers and onto the train (probably hitting a zillion people in the process) and hitting old people on the bus. I've done it before carrying just 1 mount board and nothing else and that was bad enough. Oooh yeah did I also mention that I basically have to sort out what uni I'm going to by the end of half term? Stress!
It was boring at college today, I couldn't really do anything because I needed to use my computer and we're not allowed to go home to do work which is really infuriating. It was quite funny after lunch though because two blokes in my class, Billy and James, got hold of these fake hands from a mannequin which were just lying around attached to arms, they detached them from the arms and put them up their sleeves so they looked like they belong to them. They're very long slender womens hands, then they made them hold an empty coke bottle.. and it sounds stuuupid but I found it hilarious.. it was one of those situations where you had to be there to understand!
I was meant to see Dave this weekend, but I just can't now, I've got too much to do. I sent him a couple of texts earlier and they probably sounded a bit harsh like 'go away' or something because he took them the wrong way and thinks I'm moody at him or something stupid, which I'm not. I also hate it when people keep asking me if something is wrong, it's a bit annoying. I'm fine, I'm just a busy girl :P
