January 30, 2003
It's been a SHITTY SHITTY SHITTY week!! Everything that can possibly go wrong has gone wrong, and it's just "noooooooo!" Arggh. I'll start from Sunday because it all started then. My Mum was feeling very ill and I was really worried, she was so pale, had no energy, was feeling nauseous and had an excruciating pain in her left side. Dad thought first of all that it was the kentucky fried chicken that we ate Sat. night - food poisoning or something, then he thought it might be appendicitis, but I pointed out that your appendix is on your right side (I used to read up on all the symptoms all the time when I was a bit younger because I was terrified of getting it). So we called the doctor who came round and diagnosed her with a bladder infection or something, and she's got pills to take, and painkillers. She's feeling a lot better today I think.
Monday was assessment day. I was panicking in the morning, trying to cut a hole out of my cardboard thing for my CD, and as my scissors handle is plastic, it just snapped off so I couldn't use it! I don't know why that happened. I borrowed James' scissors and just as I was giving them back to him, my arm bashed into a wood table divider and the scissors flew out of my hand and landed on one of his mounting boards, making a dent in it. Luckily he's not an offensive kind of chap so I was let off lightly! Assessment was ok. Pissed off about my grade though.
Tuesday.... oh yeah that was the day I found out about my grade. Enough said. Don't get me wrong, it's not a bad grade at all, I'm just annoyed because I put in sooo much effort.
Wednesday, I was ready to kill myself (not really) when I read the 'Today' board at college.... it said our group had life drawing ALL DAY. I survived though.. just.
Today... there was snowstorm! Some thunder too. I hope it snows loads tonight so I won't have to go to college tomorrow....that would be nice :P Finally bought some transparencies... cost me about 17 pounds O_o
Some good news I just got though! Cheered me up quite a lot :) It's from Lauren my Australian pal who I swear is a clone of myself lol:
Hey Michelle, :)
I'm wanting to know when you are at college because.... I'm coming to England in April!!! :D Probably for about two months. I will be coming over about 20th-21st April, and then going to see Mel C in concert. I don't know how many concerts I will go to, but she is touring the UK and Ireland late April to mid May. Would you like to come to a concert with me? Perhaps the London one which is 8th of May (Darren's birthday!)?
So, let me know when you are at college, cos obviously I want to be able to catch up with you so we can finally meet face-to-face! :) We will have to do something cool for my birthday (June 16) because I would love to spend my birthday over there! :D Perhaps we could go somewhere for the weekend...?
And would it be alright for me to stay with you for a little while (a week or two?) That's if it's OK with all your family. :)
Hope I haven't shocked you too much with this! LOL
Chat soon, *hugs* Lauren
I remember the first time I chatted to her online.. we met on the SG bulletin board thing... I dunno if that's still going actually, but I used to be on there a lot. I said something about 'Daz' (washing powder) in one of my posts and she PM'd me asking what Daz was. We've been emailing each other ever since! That was about 3 years ago or more.
Oh yeah and last Friday I had this horrible dream that I was pregnant, then woke up and found I had a stomach ache.
There was this old woman in the bus this morning and she had a bit of snot dripping off the end of her nose.. y'know, the runny kind, haha. She wiped it away though but it was funny, I was sitting there giggling to myself.
Dave phoned me up yesterday! That was nice.
Yes, I'm a girl of few words today. Oooh yeah I also finished the 2nd Harry Potter book.. now onto the third! I'm getting addicted I tell you and I NEVER thought that would happen to me.
January 23, 2003
Yaaay, we got an extension over the weekend for our project - I would have just about got it done, but now I can make it even more fabulous, with extra boards and stuff. I think I'm gonna work on it after dinner. By 3pm today I was feeling drained of energy and couldn't actually physically do any work, so I sat there for another hour and a half doing nothing, then went home. It was annoying 'cause I missed the 5:06 bus by literally seconds and had to wait for the next bus that went to Crawley Down, luckily it was the 82 which doesn't go all the way through Copthorne, and there was a nice bus driver which is a VERY rare occurrence.
That Electric 6 Song - "Danger, danger. HIGH VOLTAGE" is really funny, I like the vid v. much. There aren't really any decent songs out at the moment. I've been listening to the Foo Fighters album lately, I like track 11 but can't remember what its called lol.
Nothing exciting has happened lately *tries to think* Phil STILL(!) hasn't got me a Jumpin' Jaks form. Bernadette apologises to me like every day about it, haha. I'm really getting bored of Alldays now though, it's sooooo dull and I have to work with old women who leave me on the till on my own all day when it's really busy, and I have to contend with all the grouchy old people moaning about prices.... blah blah blah. They think it's my fault or something if we don't have a particular item in stock, etc and it really gets on my nerves. I had this one man the other week who came in at about 8:15am and demanded 40 pounds cashback. We only have a 50 pound float in the morning so that's a bit impossible, and when I told him he could only have a maximum of 10 pounds cashback because that was the only note I had, he bit my head off. I felt like punching his face in, but as I'm a nice, quiet civilised girl, I don't do things like that.... grrrr.
Nothing else to write, had no interesting dreams lately or anything... and it seems like Friday today.
January 19, 2003
I just finally bought my domain and webspace, it only cost me about 50 pounds, I thought it would cost me about 100, so that was a pleasant surprise. I was planning to buy it over Christmas, but I was a bit tight on cash over that period so I never got round to it.
This weekend I have been in front of a computer most of the time, I have no life. I haven't been out properly for a very long time and it's very depressing.
January 16, 2003
DAMN BUS DRIVER! Drove right past my stop on the way home, despite my ringing the bell and running down the stairs. I didn't say thankyou to him on the way out. Ha!
I had this odd dream this morning before I got up. First I woke at 7, then must have dozed off til 7:30, that's when I had the dream. First off, I was working in Sainsburys in East Grinstead, but it kind of looked like the interior of Tesco in Crawley. A manager person called me to the front of the shop and told me to look out of the front window. I looked, and there were terrorist people standing outside with guns. Suddenly, my Dad was there with me and he was a policeman. We got into a car and drove around East Grinstead, but it was kind of a place I made up in my head because I didn't recognise it, but somehow I knew it was East Grinstead O_o Then we saw the terrorists up ahead. We'd stopped the car and they were on the road and pointing guns at us. Dad started the car up and tried to drive really fast forward but it seems as if we were going in slow motion. Some bloke with a gun was standing right in front of us pointing it at us, but he sort of gave us a look and a gesture as if to say "get out while you can" and didn't shoot but as we drove away still kept the gun trained on us. I think one of them shot at us, but it just hit the car and din't do much damage. We got past them and sped down the road, and into a smaller road, where there were loads and loads of pineapples everywhere and we were trying to drive through them. There were loads and loads and loads and they were rolling around everywhere, I don't know where the hell they were coming from. They were small green pineapples, not yet ripe. We had to stop the car because we couldn't plough through the pineapples anymore, so I got out. Suddenly, I couldn't see Dad and I was a different place, but there were still pineapples. I was worried that the terrorists were going to get him. There were some girls in the road who were trapped by pineapples, and I asked them if they'd seen my Dad, I talked to this one in Particular who looked like Nichol. They said they hadn't seen him. Then this terrorist man came around the corner and asked the girls if they'd seen my Dad. I his behind something.. maybe pineapples ^_^ I was really worried where my Dad was. Then I walked out of the pineapple road and onto another street and I was wondering what the hell was happening and how I was going to get home...
Why do I get all this junk mail to my Hotmail account?? Some examples of subjects of todays little gems: "dedisset vytizic michelleion free EUR0 " (WTF?!), "michelleion, don't pass up this one! xoihpqf ", "Hot Naked Bitches", "Re: Real candid incest incedents?", "michelleion@hotmail.com If you die, what happ... ", "Updated Adult Content". DELETE, DELETE, DELETE!!
I just discovered this website, I swear it is actually magic!
January 13, 2003
We got our new laptop today.. it's very cool I must say. In the end my parents decided to not get it only for Andria, but for the whole family. It also came with a decent printer so now... finally after many years, computer work I print out might actually look good! Woohoo!
College? College! COLLEGE?! ROFL... you know, I think I'm losing my mind so you must excuse me.. haha. Yes, I went into college today, then I came home at lunch because I had a 'headache' I'm not saying anything else because then my 'mysterious secret project' will be revealed! Oh no!!
Ermm.. what else is there to say? Ooh yeah! I saw Darren Hayes' 'Crush' vid yesterday on MTV!! He didn't look particularly nice in it though :( The vid is really 80's though, cool.... I love that chocolate with the Smarties in it, first of all I thought it would be yucky but it's actually really lovely!! I think I'm addicted! Try it! *advertising* I need to download that demo of Flash from the Macromedia site.. but it's over 40mb!! That will take me DAYS to download! I have Getright so I can do resuming downloads, but it doesn't seem to be working which is SOOOOOO irritating. RANDOMNESS IS THE KEY TO LIFE!! OH YES!
January 11, 2003
Oooh I had a rather expensive night last night and I didn't even do much.. how does that figure?? First went to Wetherspoons, and found out that hardly anyone was coming out which was really annoying. Saw Gemma and Paul from college briefly, Gemma said I looked pretty and it made me feel happy :) Dave was really pissed off that nobody was coming out and briefly left, after lots of moaning that Brock wasn't coming out, as he wanted to see him before he goes back to uni. So it was Rachael, Kirstin, Katie, Alexis and I. Went to Jaks, where it was very expensive (!) Alexis, Kirstin and Katie left at about 11:30, so it was just me and Rachael. We decided to go to Martines to see if it was more exciting there, but it wasn't and it was also very expensive! The music was also much much crapper. They did play Christina's 'Dirrty' though, which was good. All night Racael had been looking out for this bloke called Alec who she had got together with briefly in a drunken state the week previous, and he said he's be in EG. Apparently she was soo drunk, that she couldn't even remember what he looked like, she could only remember that he had a deep voice, so anyone that walked past she was like "Is that him??" It was rather amusing. It was crap in Martines so we left at about 12:45 and I got my Dad to pick us up. Dropped Rachael home and when we got in I planned to write in this, but I was using the computer downstairs and the pages kept freezing up, so I gave up and went to bed, after consuming a packet of Hula Hoops. I got to bed and couldn't sleep for aages. I listened to Christina Aguilera for half an hour, then tried to sleep, but although on my bed I had my duvet and two blankets, I was still freezing cold. My mind was racing too, I was just thinking about anything and everything, that happens sometimes and I hate it. Finally I slept and was awoken by my alarm clock at 6:50 this morning, alerting me to get up and go to that shitty place I call work. Jade got into my covers and was snuggling up to me, but I had to get up and disturb her :( I had a chat to Amy though, she's a little sweetie. She gets on my bus most days in the morning because she studies beauty at Crawley College, and we always have a moan about how late the bus always is, etc.
This weekend I'm planning to do more to my project, I've really got my teeth stuck into this one, I'm not saying what I'm doing, but I'll just say that when I'm done, I'll send copies of it to friends ^_^.
One more thing.....--->"instead I see “that lot” and no-one turns up"<-------That doesn't exactly boost my confidence. Great, I'm a no-one O_o Might as well just jump off a cliff now.
January 6, 2003
It was the first day back at college after the Christmas hols today.. and I tell you I was really dreading it! I got on the bus this morning and realised it has gone up by 20p. I don't have my bus pass yet because whenever we go to the bus station, the damn thing is closed. Luckily the bus wasn't very crowded because a lot of people obviously aren't going back to school/college yet. Got on the train and walked the 10 minutes to college and it was soooooooo cold. Met some college buddies and talked to Bernadette about the state of the blokes who go there. I mentioned that when I had gone there for interview last year, I had seen this really nice campy looking bloke with blonde/brown hair in the computer room when someone was showing me around and his name was Paul. Bernadette said that she knew who I meant, he came from South Africa and she used to like him too. Oh if only he were a year younger, haha. Well we got into our 'specialised groups', I'm doing graphic design and there are hardly any girls. We got started on our first project and it's gonna be fab.
January 3, 2003
Wow... the sun is shining this morning! I can just see one fluffy white cloud in the sky. Sunshine really makes you feel happy, doesn't it? Well, especially after about 2 weeks of non-stop rain and completely covered sky ^_^ I'm feeling much much better today. I feel bad about not going out with friends last night and I feel I've missed out because I think everyone was going :( Typical. Have been reading Harry Potter this morning, think I'm about three quarters of the way through :) Think I might watch a couple of chatshows, hehe.
I had this odd dream last night. First of all I dreamt I walked past where Matt works and I saw him, I quickly walked past so he wouldn't see me, but I saw he had this really weird bike.. it was kind of tall and a really odd shape..hmm. Then I woke up and dozed off again and had half-awake dreams, I dreamt that there was still a train station in Crawley Down and I got a train to Brighton but ended up in East Grinstead (!) The train on the way there was like an underground train and we had to stand up. My Mum was with me, as was Jade, then they sort of disappeared, and suddenly I had come out of a supermarket and I had some things in my trolley and got the train home, from Brighton (East Grinstead, lol). First of all I got onto a train like the first, like a London underground train but then suddenly it changed, I was sitting right at the front of the train and it kind of looked like the top of a bus inside - there was a huge window that I could look out of, there was no locomotive in front, it was quite posh inside, lots of mahogany and brass and I was a bit scared. In my dream I was thinking "I've been in trains before in dreams and they acted scary" (I sometimes have dreams about trains going really fast down twisty turny dark tunnels). I was scared that the train was going to crash into something, then there was suddenly a trampy man on the rails and I was scared we were going to crash into him but we didn't. Although we were coming back from Brighton (East Grinstead) it looked like the route I travel on the train to get back from Horsham. Finally I got back to Crawley Down and it was then I realised I still had my supermarket trolley and people were giving me weird looks. I wheeled it down Burleigh Way and was thinking "where the hell am I going to put this thing?" then I saw loads more supermarket trolleys littered down the road, so I felt a little better for that. I got home and unloaded my stuff from the trolley and somebody helped me take it inside. There was an episode outside the house with 2 women and a child but I can't remember what happened there. I got inside and the house looked different, it was tidy and there was different furniture, and the layout was a bit different too. My Mum also looked very different, she looked younger and was wearing a dress and makeup, she looked beautiful. Andria asked me if I noticed anything different about the dining room and I noticed that they had bought a new mahogany table. There was also this strange man in the house with blonde/brown hair and everyone seemed to know who he was except me, I didn't even bother asking anyone who he was, and he seemed to be making dinner for everyone. He was making roast dinner, but at the same time it was spaghetti bolognese... We weren't allowed to eat dinner on the new table because apparently there wasn't enough room for everyone to sit at it, so we had to eat it on our laps in the living room, and for some reason it had become extemely messy in there. Then my Mum went upstairs and came down again looking normal.
That part of the dream ended and I was in this place (I think it might have been East Grinstead again!) with this troublesome boy with brown hair and I was showing him stuff. We went into this launderette place which was a bit run down.. and then we were just walking round town, but I can't exactly remember why. I'm sure I've dreamt that before, though. Then I was in this other place, it kind of looked like the Tate Britain art gallery inside but it was a sort of party that was going on in there. People were doing this weird dance. I saw Hayley and was talking to her, she'd had her hair done really strangely but it looked really cool, it was white and she's got many tiny plaits in it and blue and purple ribbons with metallic pieces coming off it. Then I noticed that she still had a black fringe but I didn't say anything..lol. I asked her how much it had cost to get her hair done like that and she said it had cost her 90p.....
January 2, 2003
Woke up this morning and thought "uh-oh", I could feel a slight pain in my stomach. I knew that when I stood up it would come on strong so I stayed in bed reading Harry Potter 'til about 11am. Then I went to have a shower. It didn't help, after about 3 minutes I had to get out of the shower, dripping wet because I was feeling rather faint and my stomach was killing me. Then I started to feel even worse. I had to call my Mum up to help me to my room, I didn't have the energy and probably would have fallen over if I tried, I really felt I was going to faint. It was so awful, I had never felt such extreme pain and it had come on so suddenly. My Mum stayed with me for about an hour until I felt a little better. I had gone as white as a sheet, was burning up but at the same time freezing cold, was nauseous and my thighs ached like mad and I couldn't keep my legs still. I drank loads of water. Eventually I felt a little better but I still had excruciating throbbing aches in my stomach. My Mum made me a lovely fruit salad for lunch which is all I could stomach, then I just stayed in bed til about 4pm, napping as I was really tired.
Please... never let me have that again! Was meant to go out with mates tonight but I don't have the energy :(
January 1, 2003
2003 Woo, 2003... is that good? I'm in a bit of a black mood so you must excuse me. A mixture of no sleep/over consumption of alcohol/time of the month coming up I feel. Well the past year has been, shall we say... eventful, lots of things went on, lots of changes, finished school for good, started college, etc, etc. Happy times, sad times, it's all part of life I guess. I have no idea what this year will bring, but I think looking to the future in a positive light is the best way to go.
Right, I haven't written in here for about 2 weeks, so I guess I'll start from Christmas day. I received 6 CDs from my parents... Blue, Red Hot Chili Peppers, Will Young, Foo Fighters, Tenacious D (hilarious!) and Jennifer Lopez's new album..... which is absolutely fab! It's my favourite at the moment. My favourite songs on it are 'Still', 'Loving You', 'The One', 'Again' and 'You Belong to Me'. 'Baby I Love U' isn't bad, but the title is a bit stupid sounding, so that puts me off, lol. The album has a 70's soul feel, and that's cool. I definitely recommend it ^_^. Nichol got Christina Aguilera's new album and that's fab too, there's this really good song called 'Get Mine Get Yours'. What else did I get... hmm.. I got an Alex (Big Brother 3!) calendar from Andria, a spiderman poster and a 'climbing spiderman' from Nichol, I got my new phone which I bought from myself and it's just really cool, some other little things, gift books, blah blah blah. Christmas dinner was yummy, then watched films and stuff in the evening, like we always do. Boxing day we went to Grandparents house, were meant to go for the whole day but just after lunch Andria was complaining of a headache, so we all went back home again. Worked on Friday and Saturday.
Yesterday I went to Charlottes house for a party, saw in the new year and all that, embarassed myself quite a lot and made myself look like a fool on some occasions *cringe*, after a while went to someone else's house for a bit then went back again, then walked to that other person's house again and walked back, finally crashed out on Charlotte's living room floor at about 3:30am, I had no sleeping bag, no pillow, so I was shivering like mad on the floor trying to keep myself warm, I took my arms out of my sleeves and stuffed them down my top in an attempt to get warm but it didn't really work. Finally woke up feeling like utter shite and went home about 9 this morning. I have been moping about the house today, reading Harry Potter (bought Andria boxed set of Harry Potter books for Christmas, now I'm starting to read them... really good ^_^) and I had a bit of a nap earlier in my lovely warm cosy comfy soft luxurious bed! Was heaven! My stomach has been playing up a bit, and I may be getting a cold, I keep sneezing.
I almost forgot.. saw the second Lord of the Rings film on Monday with Davey, I thought it was great, and I have realised that Aragorn is rather nice looking ^_^. I need to read the books. I have this LOTR card game thing I've had for years, my Dad bought it for me many Christmasses ago and I still don't know how to play the damn thing, on the box it says it's simple but the instructions are soo damn complicated sounding! The cards are beautifully illustrated though, it's nice to just look at them.
