November 26, 2002
I had a bizarre dream Saturday night. I dreamt that I was on this plane and it was coming down to land, then it touched down and suddenly I was sitting in a train, not a plane... and the train was coming into the station. It was one of those end-of-the-line stations, like at London Victoria or Brighton, where the track just stops. The train slowed down a little but it didn't slow down enough to stop in time before it crashed and I was like "OMG!!" well, it crashed and the train went right up onto the platform and sort of turned sideways. When the train was actually crashing, I seemed to be outside of it, watching it happening. Strange, huh? It was scarier than it sounds and I'm sure there was more to it but obviously I can't remember ^_^.
I'm ill, dammit. I never get ill! Grr! I've been off college for the past 2 days but I'm going back tomorrow. I'm feeling a LOT better today than I was yesterday :D For the past three years I haven't had a single day off school and I was hoping to maintain the record for college, but never mind. I was feeling rough yesterday morning, I had a pounding headache but I thought I'd brave it into college just for the morning and if I felt really bad I could come home. I got on the bus and the train to college.. and when I arrived at Horsham I decided I wouldn't be able to survive even for the morning so I turned back and got on exactly the same train which was going back in the same direction. When I got back to Three Bridges station, the ticket checker man must have thought I was a right weirdo because I walk past him every morning and I had only passed him 20 minutes before.. so I kinda covered my face and rushed off ^_^. I got the bus back and it was the same driver as had been driving on the way... haha. Then I ust moped around the house feeling sorry for myself for the rest of the day.
My Dad gave me his old SLR camera today because he had seen my photography notes lying around and mentioned that he had 2 of them in the loft but 1 of them didn't work. Cool. It was funny because my Dad had the ladder up to the loft door and it was open, he was showing me the camera and the lenses and stuff, and I just glanced towards the ladder... and Jade was climbing up it! It was sooo amusing, it was lucky we caught her though before she reached the top though haha. Aww she was climbing up there like a person would and it was soo cute! Jade is very adventurous and she loves climbing things.. especially the living room curtains. She used to climb up the blind thing in the dining room but sh hasn't done that for ages.
November 23, 2002
Omg.. that post this morning is very very strange, and i sound so damn miserable. Drinking lots of alcohol makes me feel really down and I hate that because I dont know how to cheer myself up. I'm not gonna read through my other post again but if i insulted Dave I didn't mean to :( I don't feel quite so ill now, but I think standing outside for ages last night in open toed shoes didn't do my system any good! I've got a chill or something and I feel hot and cold at the same time and my stomach is being a right weirdo :P so you must excuse me. I got some texts from Dave this morning just after I'd posted the blog entry and they were nice texts so... um... that was nice. I dunno what else to say.. I'm strange, maybe I just need to go into a corner and hide from mankind :)
I didn't go into work today because I'm feeling ill, so I'm sitting at the computer being a nerd and listening to Darren Hayes' 'Where You Want to Be' which has grown on me immensely.
Am I where I wanted to be? Did I get here easily? Did I make a sacrifice, Did I take a sharp left when I should have turned right?
Am I where I wanted to be? Did I sell off all of my gold? Did I trade it in, did I wait for love Or settle for somebody to hold?
It's been a strange week. I sent a letter to David on Tuesday stating that we should break it off because I had been feeling less and less enthusiastic about the idea of being a couple for quite a while and I thought it would be best. He phoned me up on Thursday and sounded pretty upset, but agreed to go out on Friday to the pub and Martines for a chat and blah. On Friday we met at the pub, had a couple of drinks and had a nice chat about general stuff. Sooner or later the conversation got onto the subject of why I felt we should break up, even though I had more or less explained everything in my letter. My point is that why would you want a crappy girlfriend who doesn't want to be in a relationship because she's uncomfortable and doesn't pay attention to you when you can have a fabulous friend who you can chat to, have a laugh with, etc? I don't see the logic. I feel now that we got on a LOT better as mates and I would like to go back to that. Of course I understand it's going to take some time to get over, but I felt it was the time to break it off, there is no point staying in a relationship that you know is not going to work for you, never will, and I didn't want to break up on bitter terms later on if one of us got really fed up of the other, or even went off with someone else. Then we probably wouldn't ever speak or trust each other ever again and I really don't want that and I'm sure he doesn't either. He wants me as a girlfriend and nothing else it seems and that hurts me soooo much, I don't know if it's just so that he can say he has a girlfriend? He was trying to change my mind, suggesting stuff and in my mind I was like "no no no no no" I'm not going to change my mind, I thought long and hard about it before I sent my letter off, and I didn't send that letter for no reason. If he doesn't want to be my mate I don't know what I would do, I would be absolutely gutted, heartbroken. I need him as a mate, I love spending time together, just not under 'being a girlfriend' pressure. The spark just wasn't there in the end. I can't pinpoint the exact reason, it just wasn't, although I have discovered that he can be rather possessive and I hate that, I don't belong to anyone (apart from my parents ^_^), I'm my own person. I really don't want to hurt him at all, but thats what I feel and I can't change it. Maybe we should not see each other for a while, take some time out, maybe write a couple of emails, letters. I don't know, I just feel he hates me. I don't want to make anyone unhappy, but I don't want to feel unhappy either.
I had a weird dream before I woke up this morning. I dreamt that I was on Hurst Road outside college and I was heading in the direction of the train station. There were these massive piles of insects on the path, and I had to walk onto the road to dodge them. There was this massive pile of earwigs and they were wiggling everywhere and disgusting.
I'm not going round to watch a video later, I'm too depressed, run down and feeling poorly.
November 14, 2002
Goodness me! The weather is soo damn miserable today! It's been pissing it down and windy as well so that means my umbrella blows inside out..great. Luckily that didn't actually happen today though :).. but almost! Both my Mum and Dad had days off work today and they went to Crawley to get some Christmas shopping. This morning when I was just about to leave for the bus stop, the rain really started coming down torrentially, and I told the sob story to my Mum about how I would have to wait half an hour for the bus in that afful weather, so my Dad gave me a lift to the train station..yay :) I got the early train to college and got on with my project. We had this woman today called Kate who is this textiles designer or something and to be honest I would prefer to just get on with my project on my own without someone looking over my shoulder all the time and making comments, therefore I couldn't just get on with it my way and I didn't get a lot of work done really. I left at 4:00. On Hurst road (where my college is) there is a fire station and there were all these firemen outside burning a fire in a steel bin with signs (the strike) and cars were beeping at them as they went by. It was funny on the way back from Three Bridges station on the bus, it was lucky because I just about jumped on the bus. I had to cross the road and the crossings take aaages to change so you can cross to the other side where the bus stop is. The bus was at the stop and I couldn't just run across the road because it was soo busy and I didn't want to get myself killed. The bus started driving away just as the lights changed. Luckily there was a girl in front of me who wanted to get on that bus too so she stopped it at the lights and I hopped on after her. I wasn't going to wait another half an hour in the pouring rain for another bus. On the way back I was sitting on the lower deck at the front. There were long narrow gaps on the floor of the bus, and everytime the bus went over a puddle all this water spurted up like a fountain, it was hilarious and everyone on the bus was laughing. Then the water coated the floor and got people's feet wet. Some bloke put his umbrella over it.
Oooh yeah I got Darren Hayes' re-release album yesterday with an extra disc... the extra disc isn't that good actually. There is a cover of a song, 5 live tracks and another song which I hadn't heard before, but it's slow and boring..or maybe I just need to give it another listen. That song on the single I got, called 'Where You Want to Be' is good though. It's quite slow but it's good too. I still haven't got that other single, I should have asked my parents to get it for me in Crawley today, but I forgot :(
November 11, 2002
Andria and I just had a 'fight' over something stupid which you DON'T want to know what it is because it is such a stupid thing to fight over... but now I have red blotchy arms from her whacking me, which will no doubt turn into bruises by tomorrow. She can be a real vicious little bitch at times, it drives me mad. I managed to get a kick in and a couple of hits, but she hit me more :(
On a lighter note :).. well kinda... We have a new manager at Alldays now, his name is Dave and he's really nice. I met him on Saturday, he's about mid-20's and he's not bad looking either. Not amazing looking, not really my type, but not bad.... hmm.. Anyway! I walked into Horsham town in my lunch break today to hunt for coloured paper and beads and stuff for my textiles project. I got some glitter and some gold decoration stuff from a fabric shop, and then went to MVC to see if I could find the new Darren Hayes singles 'I Miss You' (It came out a week ago, I didn't even know it was out because I'm not up to date with Darren Hayes any more *sob* and so I was listening to the chart on Radio 1 on Sunday and I heard he was at no. 20 and I was like "what??! I didn't even know it was out!!". You see I just have to get the singles on the day of release.. because.. I just do, but I was angry because I'd completely missed the date. I'll be honest, I don't like the song that much, it's too slushy but because it's Darren, I have to have it, and besides, the singles have b-sides of songs which I have never heard. I've seen the video and he looks beautiful as always). Well, MVC didn't have the singles, it had everything else, just not that, which was annoying, so I walked to Our Price instead, who only had one copy of each single left, I didn't have any money so I rushed around trying to find a cashpoint, and drew out a tenner. Then I rushed back again and grabbed the singles. It is one of those annoying shops where they don't leave the discs in the cases on the shelves, you take the empty cases up and they have to hunt around the shelves in the back trying to find them. I was standing there for ages while the girl tried to find the discs and it was rapidly approaching 1:50pm. It takes me about 15 minutes to walk back to college from the town and I have to be back by 2. Well as it turned out, someone had put one of the discs in the wrong cases for some other customer, so there were only 2 of the same single left, so I just had to take the 1, which was annoying as I wanted both!! Grr. So I'll have to look for the other one soon...
I think a Darren Hayes picture deserves to be put up, don't you?
Mmmmm. He needs to smile more though... I have a really lovely pic of him smiling on my tourbook, I'll scan it sometime.
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Faaascinating stuff haha. Weekend.. yay? Nah, I have work, then college work, but at least I'll be at home for some of it, woohoo. We had a younger model in life drawing class today, mid 20-ish, quite slim, blonde, really nice person. Bernard the tutor is still annoying though.
November 7, 2002
*Grumble* *moan* Grrrrr.... v. busy day today. I had to get up at like 6:30 this morning to get a 7:30 train to the station because, joy of all joys, we had to be at college by about 9 because we were going on a trip. The coach left college at 9:30 and arrived at London at about 11. First of all we went to the Tate Britain to look at the paintings and stuff, and then got back in the coach at 1pm and drove to this design museum thing in Islington where they were holding a UCAS fair for art and design students. Basically, you just go round and pick up prospectuses from all different universities to sift through. I was with 2 people, Emily and Mark, and after about 40 minutes we got bored so we left the fair and had a walk around the shops. I kinda wished I had stayed a bit longer though because when we got on the coach again at 4pm to go home, people had picked up all this cool stuff from the stalls, like pens, bags, keyrings, even bits of candy rock and a foam puzzle, all of which I hadn't even seen... but oh well! I picked up quite a few prospectuses and I'll be having a look at them soon. I don't want to go too far away from home when I go to uni because I know I'll get homesick.. lol.
Well anyway, my story continues, we set off home at about 4, and we just got stuck in continuous traffic jams. I swear, it took us more than an hour and a half just to get out of London, it was a nightmare. It was okay at first because the sun was setting, we were driving by the river Thames, and we could see the London Eye, all the lights were on and it looked quite pretty, but then it got darker..and darker.. and I couldn't see a damn thing out of the window so I resorted to having a nap. The only way I can get comfortable on coaches is to lean my head right back against the chair, but then when I'm beginning to doze off, my mouth starts to open which looks REALLY unattractive! If I was by the window I would have bundled up my coat and shoved it against the window for a pillow, but I wasn't so there you go. I heard this commotion going on around me, and apparently the coach had stopped, some bloke had run off clutching his stomach and Martin had run after him. Everyone was wondering what was going on. Then the bloke got back on and was looking a bit rough, I think he had thrown up or something. Ugh. Time went on.. and it was going on 7 when we arrived back at college. I had to leg it up to the train station because I thought there would be a train at 7, but of course there wasn't because the train was delayed by about 20 minutes so I had to wait there until it came. Finally I got on a train bound for my station and it just seemed to wait at the station for another 10 minutes or so for no apparent reason, so that was annoying. Finally we got going, we were being naughty and sitting in a 1st class carriage and it was lovely and warm in there, but then someone pointed out that there was a sign on the door saying £2000 fine for people not carrying 1st class tickets, so we thought we'd better move it... to a standard compartment which was FREEZING and the seats were really uncomfortable. At one of the small stations, I think it was Ifield, some bloke got on into our compartment, and walked past us, opened the door to the compartment and walked out into the timy corridor and shut the door behind him. All four of us in the compartment just cracked up, I have no idea what was so funny, it was just the way he walked through.. you had to be there really haha..
Finally got to the station, Bernadette's Mum gave me a lift home because the buses are so irregular and rare after 7 that we didn't have a good chance of catching one.. got home at about 8. What I really need now is a nice warm shower.. mmm :)
Oh yeah, I needed to talk about Jade.. she's getting better!! She is eating now :D She detests that food the vet gave us. My mum gave her a bit of fish yesterday from her own dinner and she couldn't get enough of it, then we decided that she didn't actually like the food we were giving her thats why she wasn't eating it, so we gave her some of her normal Felix tinned food and she ate the whole lot. I'm really glad about that :) She has to go to the vet tomorrow so he can see how she is doing. She still gets very tired, but it's clear that she's getting a lot better, yay!
DAMMIT, LIFE DRAWING TOMORROW... AAGHH (nasty teacher.. too serious, can't take jokes, or laugh at anything, calls us all 'rubbish' at drawing, etc, etc, etc...)
November 6, 2002
Ahh yes... I have about 4 weeks off at Christmas, how good is that?? At school I got two weeks off at Christmas. Also I have the Paris trip on the last week, that should be cool. I have been naughty this afternoon, I snuck away from college at 4 because I couldn't be bothered to stay there any more haha. I needed to come home really because I wanted to use the sewing machine (we are doing a textiles project now), I haven't used it yet but I will in a minute! Well some bloke went home at lunch, so I'm not all bad. It feels so good coming home early :) It's really strange now because whenever I come out of college at the correct time, it's dark. Before the half term, it was light when I came out of college.. its all due to the damn daylight saving and it's such a pain. Surely, people get depressed when winter approaches and it starts to get dark, so why make it worse by suddenly changing the time, so all of a sudden, it's pitch black at 5:00? Arr. Well I'm sure it has a purpose or they wouldn't do it, right?
The vet said that "we're winning" with Jade. She went yesterday and had 2 more injections, one antibiotic and another with glucose and nutrients to keep her going, because her stomach is completely empty. She went again today and just had the glucose injection, and the vet gave us some tablets to give to her tomorrow. She hasn't been sick since yesterday which is great, and she's also got some special food to eat, we gave her a little bit this morning and she ate a tiny bit. I hate seeing my little kitten ill... it makes me sad :(
New commenting system added by the way! I don't think the other one was working, and was making the page have errors, so it seems okay now :) I'll have to change the template though because it is BLACK... argh and it looks too depressing.
November 4, 2002
My poor little Jade has gastro-enteritis (I think thats how its spelt). My Mum took her to the vet this afternoon and he gave her 2 injections and has to go back again tomorrow for a check up. She hasn't been sick since I got home from college so I hope she's on the mend. She isn't allowed to eat anything, she's only allowed water to drink. Poor little thing! Everyone is giving her loads of fuss and attention.
I had my assessment for my second project this morning, I was up 'til 12 last night finishing off my massive windmill picture. It isn't as good as I'd hoped because.... um.. well I procrastinated through the half term, and I was making my 3D windmill Saturday afternoon and most of Sunday. I had to take it all in on the bus this morning and it was a nightmare because the bus was 6 minutes early (its usually about 15 minutes late) and I hadn't even arrived at the bus stop because there is no point waiting in the freezing cold for a bus that is gonna be late anyway. Well, Sod's law kicked in and it came early and I missed it, so I had to wait half an hour for the next bus to the station. I got to the station just in time for my regular train, but then realised that the train was delayed by about 25 minutes (should have arrived at the station at 9:13), so I had to wait until 9:31 for the next regular train to Horsham. When I finally arrived I had to hurry to college, and I got there at 9:55... I really wanted to get there early today so I could finish off some bits in my sketch book, but no, nothing ever goes right for me! Originally I wanted to get the 9:05 train and get there early so I could buy a new sketch book and a glue stick from the shop and get that stuff done. I barely got to the shop before it closed.. pheeeww. Well, Doug seemed to be impressed with my project, so that's one thing good about today. I don't like assessment days because you have to stand up and tell the whole class about that you have been doing. It wasn't that bad really, and the tutors are nice so you can feel you can speak easily to them. I can't wait until we go to Imberhorne to see the 6th formers and talk to them about the foundation course... haha... I hope it's soon. The Hazelwick peeps are going on Wednesday
This afternoon we started our 3rd project... textiles.... noooo!! Nah it looks good, I'll give textiles a chance even though I haven't done it since year 9.. eek.. I have to look at Bollywood, urban decay and skin and flesh.. hmm nice.
Ooh yeah I have had a headache all day today too :( Gimme sympathy!!
November 3, 2002
My poor little kitty cat is ill :( She has hardly touched her food all day and she has thrown up twice. I want her to get better, I hate it when people (or cats.. as the case may be hehe) get ill, and I hate it even more if I get ill, so I refuse to become ill. Start college again tomorrow, damn half term holiday has gone too fast. I miss my friends... :(
November 2, 2002
"Religion takes everything from you, it takes you a will to think, a right to think, it tells you what to do, it tells you what good and what bad, it tells you what to love and what to hate, it tells you black is bad and you will believe it, it tells you white is good and you will believe it, you don't have to think, you will only follow, blindly follow to wherever it leads, to religion, you are nothing but a tool"
That quote is from Shari at SurviveBadBlood.com. That is really true... of course no offence to religious people... I know some, and obviously I don't want to cause any offence O_o but I see religion as a pointless thing. My parents aren't religious so maybe I'm just carrying on with their anti-religion attitude. I went to a Christian primary school and they tried to hammer it into us then, saying the 'Lord's Prayer' every morning an assembly and such and having a vicar in once every week to talk about boring bible stuff... but why should I be religious? I don't have to follow a certain way of being to be myself, in fact I think it takes away from ourselves, makes us something else.
Just a quick post before I go to that stupid stupid shop :( I really DO NOT want to work there any more. This time last week I was on a coach, how unfair. Anyway, I had a weird dream last night, and Wednesday night, but I cannot remember what they were now... I did remember them for a short period of time but now I can't. Went to Crawley on Thursday, went into HMV... and they had Darren Hayes' 'Crush' single in. How annoying!? Oh well. It has a really cheesy cover, and the text looks like it was done on Powerpoint, haha. I have been trying to fill up my sketchbook for my art project, so I decided to do a load of images on Photoshop, with quotes from various about dreams on them... I managed to get a picture of Darren in there, haha.. and I also did one with Elijah Wood on, holding a raven. I did 2 on Thursday, and 18 yesterday! I was rather impressed with myself yesterday, but I was working all day, from about 11am to 11pm. Oooh gotta go to work..
